Entry 2

Dealing with my depression isn’t something that comes to me easily. It’s hard at times, I want to deal with them but I feel exhausted. There are even times where I want to do something to better myself, like work out or do something productive. However, the energy isn’t there and it makes me mad. I start thinking about my friends who work and still have the energy to have a side job or work out. Then, I look at myself and I get disappointed. Knowing damn well I have so much energy but, my brain isn’t letting me use it. It’s frustrating and annoying because I don’t want to just wake up, go to work, come home, and repeat the cycle. I want to change things and have a side hustle that gives me extra cash or start working out to better my physique. But, my mind isn’t letting me, but today I powered through it late but still a step forward. I grabbed my laptop and started writing down what you’re reading right now. However, I still feel like I can do more with my time. I hope tomorrow I can power through it again and go for a run or do something productive with my time because I’m getting tired of the same old routine. It’s time for me to start fighting my depression instead of dealing with my depression. In a couple of months, I hope that I will be winning this fight, and all the thoughts of giving up fade away or at least minimize. I also hope whoever is reading these entries knows that they’re not alone in this fight by taking small steps forward and not giving up. We can do it together it just takes the right amount of willpower to get up and start bettering ourselves to be happy. 🙂