Entry 10

When I was a kid my father gave me a book called “The Alchemist” by Paulo Coelho. I didn’t understand it. I was young and naive. I just thought it was about a Shepherd who was fulfilling his personal legend. I read it again or should I say listened to it on Spotify which I didn’t know Spotify had audiobooks. It made me think of my own personal legend and it’s sad to say this but I don’t think I’ve had a personal legend or maybe just maybe I’ve forgotten it after so many years of not pursuing it but I’ve started to think about it for a while now. When I was in school they always asked me to write down what I wanted to do after High School. I never truly knew that either. I would put down a software developer one year and the next a mechanic. As soon as I got out of High School I never followed through with any of those options instead I pursued music. Just like my father I wanted to be a musician and to be exact a singer/ guitarist. But, when you start out. That’s not going to pay for bills and it’s hard, to be honest, to write music and to even figure out what chord goes after the other. I try taking classes and it’s just not for me and now I’m pursuing writing and it’s hard. Writing something that’s interesting for people to read for the reader to get life advice or a life-changing read. As days pass I just think and think. If I had a friend in my shoes though I know exactly what I’d say “Keep on moving you’re still young. If you want something you can’t just lay in bed and pray or even hope for something to come your way because there’s only so much that life or God can do. If you want something you have to fight for it because your dream itself is already fighting for it to come to you. Your own personal legend is there waiting and fighting, so get up and move ” It’s funny because we know what to say to those who are going through stuff. We sometimes give the best advice to those who we love and if I’m going, to be honest, the advice we sometimes give might not be for them to listen to. It’s sometimes the advice that we ourselves have to listen to, maybe that’s when our hearts and soul are like “Hey, your friend is going through some similar stuff as you. So, lend me your voice for a bit and listen” Whether I know my own personal legend or not or my own personal legend has ceased to exist. I know that the thing I want to do the most is to help people who are going through tough times. I want to make people smile and for them to spread their smiles to others. Depression is a true thing but some think of it as a curse but I think of it as a blessing in disguise. One that could be used for good or evil. You know what it feels like to be down all the time and you might not want others to feel the same way. But, you might also want others to know and feel the same things you feel. In other words, you might want to spread kindness because you know evil or you might want to spread evil because you’ve never felt kindness. Whichever one you choose I just hope you know that you’re not alone there are people that feel the same way as you that feel the same sadness. I myself choose to spread kindness when I can. I hope you have a wonderful day/ night. 🙂