Entry 11

Right now I feel stuck again and I’m at the point of my life where I feel confused about my future. I understand that sometimes you have to go with the flow and let my life flow with whatever is going on right now. However, I feel guilty of not letting myself grow and not be a better version of myself and I know I have plenty of time to start doing a hobby or strengthening my mind with knowledge but I just stay in the loop that I feel comfortable in and I don’t know if you guys feel the same way of staying in that loop and not breaking it by doing something new. Like, taking a nap instead of reading or working out. I’m guilty of it and I dislike it because like I said nothing I’m doing right now is helping me for my future. I do open my eyes though and start to see what I’m doing wrong but as soon as I start to do something to change that loop I stop and my eyes start closing again and I feel stuck again. Like right now I know that I closed them again, I was working out every day but I stopped because I didn’t have the energy anymore. I hit a roadblock and that roadblock was my diet, in my opinion, I was just working out and eating whatever I had laying around, and the next thing I know I stopped because it was too much for my body to handle. That basically sums up my life and that as soon as I hit a roadblock I stop because of a little “rock” that’s in my way. I could’ve continued working out and started doing research and see what’s healthy and what’s not and see what foods give me energy or keep me full but I didn’t so I gave up. I think a lot of people out there can agree that there are times that we just stop doing something new because of that little “rock” that’s in our way and it sucks because we look back and we’re like “Damn, I wonder where I would be right now if I hadn’t stopped”. When we have those thoughts we should act on them and not stay where we are and procrastinate on them and continue the journey that we started because at the end of the day it’s better to keep moving rather than to stay in one place. It’s like a baby bird finally learning how to fly. If it just stays in its nest it’s not going to survive, maybe for a while but sooner or later another big bird or another animal will come and kill it but my life is my life and your life is your life. We can either act on our thoughts or stay in one place and procrastinate on them but whatever you choose to do with your life I hope it works out 🙂