New Sacrifices

It’s been a while and a lot of things have changed. I got a new job position so I’m making more but the thing that sucks about it. Is that I work in the afternoons now and I don’t get out of work until 7 PM which is way different than leaving work at 12 PM. I used to be able to still enjoy my middays and do work outside and still be able to do fun things but now. It’s like my life did a 180 spin. I’m getting more rest now and I feel like I’m getting more energy just that my energy can’t be used to do anything. Going to the Gym isn’t fun at night because it feels like once you’re out of the gym all you can do is just be a couch potato after or fall asleep. The night life truly is a blessing if you like your rest and your energy but the downside is that there’s nothing to do at all once your job is over. If you had friends that enjoy the night time and are the type of people who like to party maybe the night shift isn’t that bad but me being an introvert and having not that many friends and being bad at making new friends this new job position is truly one of the strangest decisions in my life and also one most life changing decisions of my life. Especially because it’s making me realize that I need to find my calling. I need to find my joy in life and working day in and day out just seems so bland to me. I am happy with the pay but something about this new decision is making me think a lot about what’s truly next for me and what I should truly be doing now y’know? With that being said the moral of what’s going on right now or in other words what to take from all this is that in life sometimes we want something really bad like money or more time with the family. Two things that I can truly relate to and the reality of it is that there’s a ying and a yang. There’s two sides of a coin, you have to sacrifice something to truly get what you want. I remember wanting more money so I went to look for a better paying job. This was two years ago and I’m pretty sure I talked about this job before. But, when I got the job I was working 12 hours everyday and working 6 days a weeks and I was making more money than I have ever made in my life which is how I got the house I have today but, 6 months in I think I started to realize that this job isn’t something I wanted to do anymore because I wasn’t seeing my family at all. I was just going to work and coming back and repeating my day and of course eating but aside from that I wouldn’t see my family that often. So, I quit and came to the job I had before the one I have today. They paid me less but I had more time to myself and more time with my family but sadly enough my relationship with my father wasn’t the best so I would just do the same thing that I did before but I would just be in my room for a longer period of time because of the relationship with my father. Once I moved out I was seeing my family less due in part to the fact that we were living farther apart and the relationship between my father still wasn’t the best. Now two years later my relationship with my father is better and I’m making more money than before and the only thing I’ve sacrificed was my afternoons and late nights. In order for you to want something you must give something up and you might not realize what that is until the end. If you truly want something and don’t want to sacrifice anything you’re going to have to work super hard but even then with working hard you’ll be sacrificing your free time and even family time for your goal. In doing so people in your life might walk out and that’s okay just know that in life some people can’t go up in life with you otherwise they’ll just drag you down.